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date: Sunday, September 27, 2009
title: =)
time: 5:07 PM
So yesterday I met up with Bee Khim and her bf Victor for the SIM Global Education Open House cos she wanna go see got what course that she is interested in. Ming Huai n Yi Heng join us too.. Oh man, u dunno how long since I last saw them sia…. Its been like since Feb at Bee Khim’s Birthday Celebration???? LOLFeel so guilty when I saw them, cos everytime they having meet up or what events, I am always busy and cant attend.. cos the guys in NS now only weekend free…. But then, mostly my weekend are booked *sigh* Next meet up will be James’s Birthday Celebration on Sat 17 Oct so I hopefully I can really go n make up those meet up that I misses with them…. :) Ok, the main topic of today is not really about them.. (haha) well cos its been so long that since bee khim last saw me… she was kinda interested in my love-life.. LOL (bee khim, kapo ah u… LOL) Then she was like telling that *ahem* is still single, tell me to give a try… LOL. I wish I could.. cos *ahem* is quite a nice guy, the type of guy that I like… but I guess I am not his type… dun wanna ma lu myself (given the past experiences I had)…. Come to think of it, most my friend around me are attached la.. even my mum ask me why I dun have bf -___-. Of course I love the feeling of being loved by someone n date him.. but till now I still haven meet my ahem ~prince charming… this kinda thing cannot force de u know?.. I even joke with my mum that what if one day I really meet my prince charming and I love love him soooo much (and so do him to me) that we suddenly announce that we wanna get married after dating for (like) a few months, how???? LOL Thinking abt my past experience, wait… did I say past experience???? I dun think I even have lor, unless u counted the naïve unmatured teen years of dating which is sadly my first love who we hang out together for a few months n the guy suddenly say that we would be better if we just be friends and after that we felt so awkward that we rarely talk to each other (if we really have to communicate) since that day which I still have feelings for him for few years and he din tell me any or leave a note to me and he suddenly just left to other country for his further studies (I still have to hear this news through third party.. do u know how sad it is for me at that moment?? It felt that I don mean anything impt to you!!!!!) . Everything that is about him felt so sudden and I just cant take it anymore, maybe its his style of doing things and I even so stupidly thinking that maybe he would also SUDDENLY came back and tell me that we should be together.. after all that’s his style of doing things what so I should expect ‘surprises’ from him ma. HAHA *yea right.. wait long long ah* Most ppl say that ur first love is the one that u will remember the most… ur sweet memories n the puppy love.. but sadly for me… my first love left the wrong memories for me that I could not forget it…. I hate him thou… but I still….. its hard to hate him… I hardly have crushes… (not like some ppl who can have like crushes once every few months, I very loyal de loh) so when I do have crushes, I take it very very seriously (and I mean it)… i still remember after my first love, I fall in love with another guy few yrs later.. I even try to woo him..n I even pluck up my courage to tell him that I like him.. and I get the most hurtful rejection ever had in this entire universe… No, he din reject me in harshness or rudeness… in fact he was very polite n sincerely rejected me by saying that ‘ I am really happy that u like me.. but the person that I like is *ahem ahem*’ ( which is sadly my (den) best friend) OMG can…. I rather he rejected rudely than saying that the person he like is my (den) best friend n I felt soooo used.. cos I thot he always hang out with me cos he kinda like me… but NO.. he just wanted to use me to get close to my best friend!!!!!!!!!! WTF.. but in the end they din end up together la.. he ended up with another girl after my (then) best friend rejected him.. HAHA. Noticing I use the word (den) best friend?? Cos we had a big huge fight that we not friends anymore n now shes in Aust for further studies….. Guess I quite a ‘failure’ for this kinda relationship… (oh did I tell u that it was also me that started to woo him first???) I think I should not do this again.. cos my friend says it may ‘frighten off guys’ HAHA.. so I guess, I should just sit back n wait for guys to woo me huh.. guessed that successful rate would be higher??? LOL Wau, I din realize that I open up so much today n spill some my personal stuffs here… I guess that I can trust u guys n u wont laugh at me right? RIGHT????? PS: I am not desperate or what, just wanna open up the stuffs that is hidden inside me for sooo long so that I can just clear it .. anyway, my priority now is to focus on studies and I now dun have time for dating either =) Labels: friendship, random, relationship date: Saturday, February 21, 2009
title: The Fear
time: 11:29 AM
~ Its hard to maintain a long distance friendship and yet we still talk about long distance relationship!~------ Well, things din improve much, but i am already contented that things din get even worse.... MY problems not solve... HERS problem not solved either... I have no mood for anything.... i just wanna fall asleep and never to wake up again.. School has been ok (next week will be end of year 1 sem 2) ... but the mock exams and the hard core revision later this month and mid of March.... well i dun wanna think about it..... Anyway, currently i have a huge girl crush on Lily Allen.. YUP shes got her 2nd brand new album.. listen to some of her songs.. and its very nice~ I am a HUGE fan of her latest singles - 'The Fear' now.. Loves the lyrics, very meaningful.. esp she put in the F word.. it just make it more meaningful.. Hahah... I want to be rich and I want lots of money I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds I heard people die while they are trying to find them I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless ‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner [Chorus] I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore When do you think it will all become clear? ‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear Life’s about film stars and less about mothers It’s all about fast cars cussing each other But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic And I am a weapon of massive consumption and its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner Chorus I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore When do you think it will all become clear? ‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear [Bridge] Forget about guns and forget ammunition Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner [Chorus] I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore When do you think it will all become clear? ‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear Labels: problems, random, relationship, video date: Wednesday, February 18, 2009
title: why are guys so hard to understand?
time: 10:06 PM
MAN, why is it soooo hard to understands you guys????Terrible day today... sooo tired, fed up and piss off.. Today my friend came crying to me and claim that her boyfriend (Ex-bf , now) wanted to break up with her cos he claim that she is FAT! WTF is that reason?? and some more she is not very fat loh (to me) she is just abit bigger size than Medium but not up to the Large size yet.. and he dump her becos of the stupid reason????? Thet knew each other for sooooo long since primary school and her size are almost the same from kid and since he knew that thats her size and if he thinks that she is fat, he should not have dated her.... and the worse problem???????? Before , back then when they were couple, he wanted to buy a bike and shot of 10k , been a nice girlfriend and close friend of him, she offer to lend him 10k.. and now since they are offically break.. she wanted him to retun the 10k that he borrowed from her... and guess what he reply??? 'IT IS U WILLINGLY WANT TO GIVE ME DE... WHAT FOR I RETURN BACK TO YOU???' WTF WTF WTF WTF!!! if i were there i would have kill him!!! bloddy guy.... this kinda guy should just burn in hell and be tortured!!!! but lucky, my friend did give him a tight slap thou... but the problem now is the 10k... and its not a small amount loh... and its her heart earn savings , just becos she trusted him sooooo much.... after the incident, we quickly called up our jie mei 'sisters' and give him a scolding call and i guess it kinda frighten him up abit.. and we would want to let him know that WE ARE NOT SO EASILY BEEN BULLIED!!!!!!! My friend, if u are reading this.... in want u to know that we will always be there for U.. *hugs* Jerk i u are reading this... U BETTER WATCH YOUR BACK COS WE MIGHT BE HUANTING U!!!!!! other news... got a call from Michael from Germany.... its been a month since he called and it was suppose to be a call of greetings, but we ended up fighting with each other on the line... Well part of it was my fault cos i was PISS OFF with my friend incident but still Michael u are at fault too.... well, if u are reading this: I never really want this incident to happen, i am sorry for shouting at you on the phone but its your fault too since i was in a bad mood and wanted to be alone and u are the one who trigger the problem first.... but i am really sorry... do send me an email k? we will solve it online cos international calls are to expensive and also of the time gap... *hee* ------- Hiaz, why are guys soooo hard to understand? PS: all the above problems make me sick, and i still have loads of school work n revision!! Labels: piss, relationship, sorry |