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date: Tuesday, February 21, 2006
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time: 6:10 AM
THERE WILL BE NO BLOGGING FROM TODAY ONWARDS TILL 1st MARCH DUE TO EXAMS!!! THANX ...date: Monday, February 20, 2006
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time: 3:58 PM
[to Nichalos , I am truly shock to see that photo in ur friendster .. can u pls put it away? Thanks ][ RANDOM THOUGHTS from the bottom of my hearts ] I am so so screwed now .. Exams are coming and I am so fuckard .. and these day my mood really sucks .. My mood just went all the way down and it nearly reaches the end side of the earth ..And thats the problem that I din reply some of ur SMSes and even come online . And right now I just feel like being alone in my room and do the things that I enjoy doing .. My mood is so bad that even my mum is complaining .. coz I keep complaining her abt my peers, class, school bla bla bla ..and I even bought out some of the incident that happen long long time ago and tell her how I hate that incidents [ like wad a fool I am, thinking that ‘someone’ wanna be frene with me, but end up that ‘someone’ wanna be frene with me cos she wanna stay near the person she like which is my bestfrene . and I felt like a FOOL!!!] I just suddenly feel like splashing out those stuffs that I keep inside me for so long .. I JUST WANNA LET IT GO! One of my frenes say that I am just stress .. But I dunno .. I neva felt so deep shit frustrated in my whole entire 17 years, till now .. But I din really noe wad I stress at. Was it because of the EXAMS? Of maybe I not stress at all, maybe I just need a corner of my own to let out my unhappiness .. Maybe I really need someone to tok to .. But nope, its no use .. they will just tell u to stay calm and not think abt all these stuffs .. But all these are USELESS!! So I decide to turn to my blog, and let off my unhappiness .. I noe some of my classmates do read my blog, and this is really bad if they see this post .. so I have to cross my fingers and hope they will not see my post .. I really cant stand my class sometimes, its not I hate them, I do like them .. there are some frenes who care abt me .. There is only just one small part that is sickening .. if this is solve .. my class would be perfect!! PERFECT CLASS!! I dunno wad the others feel abt this, but I do noe someone out there have the same opinion as me .. Here goes my unhappiness to the one small part of the class .. To the smokers gang [ WY’s gang] : PLS, STOP ALL THE VAGUALITIES THAT IS COMING OUT OF UR DAMN SHIT MOUTH .. AND STOP PLAYING GAMES IN CLASS, IT IS WORSE WHEN U GUYS ARE PLAYING SO LOUDLY WITH ALL THE SHIT THINGS CUMING OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH!!!! Its really irritating, yes I noe I admit, I do sometimes play games in class and so do some of my classmates .. but do they make so much noise? DO THEY? NO! ONLY U!! U GUYS SCOLD VAGUALITIES AS IF ITS END OF THE WORLD!! AS IF THERE IS ONLY ONE LANGUAGE IN THIS WORLD WHICH IS VAGUALITIES .. wad for cum sch to study? U all can form one gang which teach ppl using vagualities or maybe a school, wouldnt it be so ‘COOL’? I noe I do scold some of the words, but I dun use it as thou it is my language .. mind you! And WY , pls stop all ur nonsense and stop toking shit .. only shit ppl tok shit stuffs .. And in these world there is no such things call FREE!! U dun think that JY and BK will do the assignment for u GUYS!!! U guys were playing games so much that when it comes to pass up assignment, u guys will cum ard and ask us to help u with do the assignment .. NEVER! FAT HOPE!! And dun ask us to teach u the modules that is out for the exams …its ur fault not listening to lecturers coz u all are so bloodly busy PLAYING GAMES!! If there is no BK or JY in ur class, u smokers would have been D-E-A-D!! DEAD!! And pls, smoking is nothing cool, dun act like u are the only one who smokes in the whole entire WORLD!!!!! Or rather UNIVERSE!! [ no offence to the smokers out there, I am referring to my some of my class smokers] And stop all ur CHILDISH stuffs .. like [ who like who lar, bla bla bla .. using someone phone to sms someone telling that person ‘I love u’, this is so CHILDISH, I only thot secondary sch days will do that ..] Hiaz .. sometimes I really feel that life is so unfair .. u study so hard for u exams, but end up someone who dun listen during lesson, lazy .. score better den u .. this is damn freaking irritating .. ITS SO UNFAIR!!!! I just wish that our class will be so PERFECT if we dun have the WY’s gang ard .. OK enough of that, I shall not complain much .. coz if I am unlucky I may be with them for yr 2 if they change our classes .. So SHHHhhhhh …. Zip! Shut! =) I just wanna say that I am not here writing ppl’s bad stuff .. I just wanna let my unhappiness out here .. dun try to think that I am mean .. I am just a normal student who wanna let her anger out .. Its been almost a year in Ngee Ann .. And I found out that I do grow a lot during this period , I felt stronger, independent and mature and I noe how to handle things now .. I am really very happy in where I am now, all I ask for now is improvement .. And I am looking forward for yr 2 and I do hope that I will be in the same class as now ..[ thou as I say I hate some of them] I shall not say anything that upset me, coz I think its a waste of time .. cos some ppl might say ‘ YAYA .. as if u are the only one who is so upset and frustrated ..’ so I will end my post here .. TO ALL MY FRIENDS, I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH, I WILL NOT DO ANY BAD THINGS TO SPOIL OUR FRIENDSHIP .. I LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUCKS!!! P.S : any part time job to offer?? Pls inform me .. thanks [XuPing wanna say sorry if she ever offend anyone in her blog, pls forgive her and she will try to be a better person .. ] date: Friday, February 17, 2006
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time: 6:11 AM
OK i am damn Jealous now ..Cos FL had bought a new phone, a phone which i wan to have it so much no matter wad!!! Yes i am toking abt the phone Nokia 6111!! Yes ... i just love it when i see it a first sight .. And i am going to get it no matter wad .. [come on .. gals are meant to get jealous easily ..] I have been asking my mum to get me a new phone .. N6111 i mean.. And wad she say? " Y u need a new phone? ur current phone N7200 still working ma .. DUU WASTE MONEY LAR!! " But i really wan!!!!!! Humph .. blame on me for spending too much $$ on something else .. HIAZ!! cos now i NO $$$!! Hmm ... i think i should try on my dad .. maybe he will get it from me!!!!=) MUHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! [ a gal who is currently hoping her dad will get her N6111 .. hoping and hoping ..] date: Thursday, February 16, 2006
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time: 10:45 AM
AT LAST!!! COMPRO TEST IS OVER!!!WOOT!! NO more COMPRO ANYMORE!!!!! YAYAY!!!! haha .. now i only need to concentrate is MY MINI-PROJECT 3, EG2 and AEL!!! LOL!!! Yesterday:Another year of Valentines day where I celebrate with myself ONLY .. But never mind! SINGLES ROCKS!! [ its good for ur health and good for ur pocket size .. HeeHee] To Michael : Hey Thanks for your package I LOVE IT!! I receive it yesterday .. Any yes .. I MISS YOU too! Hope U doing fine there!! And to Josh .. Thanks for the flower u gave me .. and thanks for the dinner that u cook .. [I din noe u can cook lei, till NOW!!!!] If fact, me, juan and Lingz wanna thanks u for the flower and dinner, u are a great chef man .. haha .. u are so thoughtful for the SINGLES one .. [ I am so touch !! can I cry now???] LOL!!! [all i wanna do now is to SLEEP AFTER I GET HOME!!!!!! cos currently this poor gal is AT SCHOOL!!!] date: Tuesday, February 14, 2006
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time: 5:27 AM
EEPS PRACTICAL TEST ...WOOT!!!! I noe how to do!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Still got Sports and Wellness tml .. sian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [end of post] date: Monday, February 13, 2006
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time: 3:38 PM
Hola!!Before I start I want to give myself a pat on my back .. Why?? COZ I DIN GO ONLINE FOR 3 DAYS!!! OK except now .. [Muhahahah] Was in a good mood these day .. coz EXAMS cuming!!! [of cos NOT lar , is HOLIDAY cuming!! LOL] Din go out on Sat and Sun .. [see I so guai! =)] I lock myself up in my own tiny little room .. TO STUDY!! YES!! .. no laptop, no radio, no telephone and no TV .. only my books , pencils etc and my handphone!! [oh god I cant live without my hp man] So with these two days, I only have my books and hui min to accompany me .. [coz she SMSes me !] [ of cos I gt watch TV abit lar , if not ,like that where gt life rite??] And Miss Hui Min was rite .. we now must study until we pengz .. den aft the exams we can slack until we become jelly during holiday[ Oooo Scary , like Jelly?] .. and with that jing yi liang yan from Miss Hui Min, I decided to study!! [ see hui min, I so listen to you] Today is Sunday and normally I will stick in front of my TV set and sit for hours and hours .. but me today only watch one TV program and thats is the Winter Olympic Torino 2006 highlights . =) even my mum say I break my personal record of only watching one TV program .. Ok lets tok abt something silly .. I thot that Torino was a city in CANADA!! Haha .. OK call me stupid and silly .. I kept thinking that Torino was in Canada and end up Josh told me its at Italy .. How would I noe .. I dun study Geography!! I think even those who study Geo dun even noe where the hell is Torino. At least I make some sense and at least say that its in Canada and not say that the event is held in the Middle East!! Why I say is Canada? Simply, coz Canada came into my mind first that its a place where it like snowing almost every day!! Coz in Winter games u need SNOW!! And I din noe that Italy do snow at this time .. And I heard that Canada people were good in Winter sports like ice-hokey? OK maybe I was wrong .. forgive me .. [SOB!!] U noe I am kinda weird person .. I like to watch those sports highlights .. No matters its Olympic, Winter Olympic, Southeast Asia Games or Commonwealth Games ..i just love and enjoy watching that .. I will just stick my butt on the floor and not go anywhere!! I noe .. I am SO WEIRD!!! And I keep track on wad events will be held on that day ..and whenever theres live telecast, and no matter wad time I will try to watch , even ITS 3AM IN THE MORNING!!!! Pingz is a weirdo .. Pingz is a weirdo .. Pingz is a weirdo .. Pingz is a weirdo .. La La La La La La .. The Winter Olympic was so cool! Theres like so many sports lor .. and in the first day they have .. eh .. Nordic Combine [which I still dunno how they complete with each other], shooting, ice hokey, freestyle skiing, women’s moguls, figure skating and luge =) And Luge was so cool! They were like going 130+km/hr !!! Haha .. Tml I having practical test again .. [YES!! again, and we have to design our own relay circuits ..] Thou its like open book, but … its like no use de lei .. Hiaz .. Den somemore Wednesday I have Practical test and MCQ on COMPRO .. HELP ME!!!! NO PROB!! I WILL SURVIVE THIS WEEK!!!!! Actually I am quite anxious abt my last week COMPRO written test .. I really really really do hope I can do well .. really .. from the bottom of my heart!!!!! I AM SO DEAD WORRY!!! Den aft this week I will have holiday till end of April, but I will have EG2 test on 24 Feb and AEL on 28 Feb .. SO I MUST SURVIVE!!! [The things that spread faster den disease is RUMORS] date: Friday, February 10, 2006
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time: 8:13 AM
OK tml THE O'level takers are gonna take their O'LEVEL RESULTS ...SO I WANNA WISH THEM ALL THE BEST!!! OK!! [and to FL and JW good luckn for ur EL results tml!!] date: Thursday, February 09, 2006
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time: 5:47 PM
I am not suppose to blog at THIS MONENT! But I choose to ..So I have to face my consequences if I did not manage to do my assignment on time .. YES!! Two assignment to hand in tml .. And guess wad?? I have to do TWO MATHS TUTORIAL which is like 23 pages of my log book are needed.. And I have to complete my MATHS ONLINE so that I can do revision tml during tutorial time.. And I having a mini quiz for maths tml .. SOB!! Toking abt quiz .. today the EECAD test SUCKS man .. I need to have 100% auto route in order to get a full marks for one my section .. And I only mange to auto route 99.5% ONLY!! WTH!! The program cant even give me 0.5% .. and I din get my full marks!! Screw that program man .. but at least I no need to attend his lesson anymore!! YAY!! We having 4 hours free today in sch , so we [ me, jy, bk, fl, xm and sw] decided to hang out at our sch snack bar for 4 long hours .. We tok, we joke, we crapz .. and of course to study COMPRO for the test at 6pm later .. And the guys bully ME!! They ask me to photo copy some notes and it like 20+ pages and in 3 sets .. and when I go there .. the aunty tell me to photo-copy myself .. WTF!!! PHOTO-COPY MYSELF?? Being no experience in photocopying things, I made a fool out of myself .. and the first few paper that I photo-copy was like in BLACK COLOUR for half of the page !! Went back, den went to submit my reflection sheet to my CATS lecturer .. and damn .. her office is so damn far away from the place we were .. And I like spent 15 mins walking to block 53 .. And wad scare me off is the lift .. My lecturer office was at level 5 so I took the lift and I dunno wad the fucking-hell happen.. the lift suddenly stops at level 4 for one min .. it really give me a fright man .. And I swear I will neva ever take the lift of blk 53 alone .. even if I have to go to level 8 I will still climb the stairs ..[ thou I dun think I have the chance to go to level 8 =)] For the whole 4 hours we din really do much, besides the guys doing MOL [wau so hardworking] .. we were practically joking all the time and din really study COMPRO lor .. And it was so fast that time pass so soon .. where we have to go for our COMPRO test [ there is lesson from 3 to 4pm, COMPRO] And it sucks too .. I will be very happy if I get a pass .. if I get 60 and above .. I will be so surprise and treat u guys ice-cream [maybe only].. And when the paper was over , everybody have the same reaction .. [Hiaz .. fail liao lar , sure fail de ..] And heard from someone [which I forgot] that this test is 30% of it .. WTF! WTH!!!! Why do we have to take this TORTURING module .. wad make it worse is tt NEXT WED I HAVE COMPRO PRACTICAL TEST!! AGAIN??? $#%^$&%*(^&) !! –Argh- Its like one is over and here comes another .. OK! Its over now .. [at least] and I now I wanna do my assignment in PEACE now .. [YAY! Its my 101 post since I blog in blogspot ..] date: Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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time: 10:52 AM
I think i gonna be dead tml ..COMPRO COMPRO COMPRO COMPRO!!! Hiaz .. i having that test tml and i hope that i can survive that tml .. GOD PLS HELP ME!!! date: Tuesday, February 07, 2006
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time: 10:34 AM
OK before I start .. I wanna say something ..And this thing from someone by the name call Hali .. And he wanna me to say sth to N*** Here goes .. Hali admires N*** [I noe I gonna get kill by someone , so I din spell out her name, but I think u noe who u are .. I am truly sorry, but its hali wanna me to put it in my blog .. u noe, I am stuck in the middle lei ..] You noe sometimes where u have so many stuffs to do, but when u settle down and start to do ur work , U just dunno wad to do first! And when u say have lots of stress, u cant seem to figure out where the stress came from !!?? [I noe I am weird] But u guys have this situation before?? Hiaz .. I slowly find out that I cant seems to handle my work so well now .. Hiaz .. Our COMPRO lecturer says that this wed have written test , den next wed have practical and MCQ test .. OMFHG!! Just when I thot I no need to learn COMPRO anymore aft my written test!! But I still have to .. SAD!!! I have so many things to do by this week .. which the most important are: -Study for COMPRO written test .. -Do maths tutorial [ 2 freaking exercise] -Maths Online (MOL) -Revise AEL .. SHIT!! SO many things to do , and I next week have practical test for EEPS!! WHT!! We have to design a control circuits as wad the lecturer gives us on that day .. DESIGH?? Did I heard wrongly?? We are suppose to design a circuit?? Hiaz .. Today was such a stupid day for me .. Me and Fu Loong wear the same colour t-shirt today .. ORANGE! And the WY gang was like teasing me like hell .. [I wish I have a hammer in my hand at that moment .. so that I can smash on WY head .. hee.. I AM BAD!!] And now the colour that I hate? ORANGE!! Went home as usual with Marcus and Hali [ thats when he told me he admire someone] .. we were so noisy at the busy .. We tok , we giggle, we laugh .. like nobody hell-out-of business .. Den hali bought his digital camera today .. and we were practically having fun taking pictures on the bus .. [as u noe the bus is always crowded where it is 4sth pm ..] Most of the ppl were looking and staring at us .. but we din care and continue to joke and laugh and of cos to take pictures .. [ and I din noe that guys are so vain these days ..] But I rather to have this moment forever .. cos its so fun!!! Who cares abt wad other ppl think of u rite??? IT NOT MY BUSINESS!!! < < < < < < < its late now and I still have not done any single thing .. WEEeeee!!! date: Monday, February 06, 2006
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time: 4:46 AM
Just when i thot i was in DEEP SHIT of trouble ..U came and rescue me .. > > > > ALRIGHT!! Stop dreaming and DO UR WORK NOW!! Just when i was dreaming, i was woken by Lingz voice .. And yes indeed, it was just a dream .. Who will come and rescue me?? WAKE UP PINGZ!!!! U ARE NT IN DREAMLAND!! Yes, i am not in dreamland and the one sitting beside me is nt my prince charming .. Its Lingz .. [ DOTZ ] And more worse is that .. in front me is a plie of work for me to do .. [i will not wan tt for my dreamland!!] It not a high as the mountain .. but its the contents of work that is killing me .. [And Lingz is nagging to me now , DO UR WORK!!] U guys will be wondering .. since when Lingz is so hardworking and so call take cre of me now .. YAYA ... SHE IS HARDWORKING!!! [kanna force] I have so much of stuffs to do .. As sch EXAMS!! are cuming near which is 23 Feb and 28 Feb ( i think ) And it like 2 more weeks and counting to study break and i dun even fully noe a damn thing abt AEL .. ANd my EG2? -Shrugs- its sucks .. A maths everyway ... WTH!! i dun wan a barely pass .. i wan at least a B+!!!! But now tt worried me most is COMPRO written test on Wed (8 Feb) And now i am trying to re-do all the stuffs tt she taught and hope i can gt a good marks out of it .. not like lat time, i just gt a passing mark .. =(( Its still morning now .. and i recieve a call from Juan and Josh .. [ the priated JJ ] asking me to go Josh house .. I WAN I WAN !! Lingz will u pls let me go??? [i GONNA FORE HER TO LET ME GO!] MUAHHAHHAHHAHHA [i am evil, i am bad] < < < < < < Yst was kinda fun , i went to Changi beach there, u noe the old Changi village?? Went there with my dad frenes to eat SUPPER!! Yes, supper! LOL .. reach there ard 10pm .. [Minz tt y i din go online at nite] it was so cooling and u can even smell the smell of the sea .. We went PLaying on the sand thou its close to mid-night .. LOL but it was fun .. coz we only met up with each other once every CNY .. =) . . . . . . . . . . [I hope this kinda of fun neva ends .. ] [YAYAY!! i going to Josh house to have fun!!!] date: Saturday, February 04, 2006
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time: 4:39 AM
Dear buggers ..My mood still continues to go down .. Before i start writing down some crapz or wadever .. i have something to say .. [dear 5th aunt (my dad side), its really sad to heard from 3rd aunt tt u pass away last nite, thou i only meet u once and i dunno why u are left alone and din cum to our family gathering (heard from mum, coz tt u are poor), and i noe u are somewhere up there .. i just wanna tell u, no matter wad, my family will always remember u as our 5th aunt .. Rest in Peace ..] Yup, i gt this news early in the morning at 9am .. before we went out to the temple and pray .. My 3rd aunt called my dad and told him that my 5th aunt has commit sucide (heard tt she jump down from her flat there) .. i din really know why she has to do that, neither the other families members .. but they say is that due to her depression .. After we recieve the called , we din have any mood to go anywhere .. but we still have to go to temple and pray .. Den my dad send me to Sch, coz i need to do some work (which i am now, with lots of thoughts and blogging ..) and after that we have to go somewhere again .. After the incident happen , i finally realise that its really important to live happily and try not to think all the stress we have , we only have one life and one chance to live , so we have to live to the FULLEST!! No matter wad obstacles we have ahead, we have to lift our head up high and to go through every obstacles .. Coz u neva noe wad gonna happen next .. SO DEAR BUGGERS OUT THERE, TAKE UR LIFE SERIOUSLY, AND I MEAN IT!! 2nd Feb 2006 5th aunt we will always remember u .. date: Friday, February 03, 2006
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time: 9:33 AM
Hello blog ...I feel so sucky today .. Today is a SMLJ and KNS day .. i dunno wad happen to my mum, she keep throwing temper at me .. And GOD! i gt sore eye .. [which really spoil my mood] SO i din go to sch again .. [to Nadz .. i am just kidding only la .. LOL..] Sometimes i felt that life is just so unfair .. there are like more ppl who hate u den love you .. i gt some reply due to my last last post .. on the last few sentances .. [PLS I AM NT UNDER DEPRESSION OK!! I AM NOT GOING TO COMMIT SUCIDE OK!!] Its just tt my mood wasnt good these days .. maybe EXAMS are cuming so i kinda stress up .. ARGH!! Theres so many things to revise .. Hiaz .. give me a break man ... [sad sad sad day ..] date: Thursday, February 02, 2006
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time: 10:02 AM
Boring now .. so i blog lor ..[ theres this guy who is so crazy sitting beside me singing all the way and trying to act cool and good in front of me .. wanna tell me howmuch he like this GAL!!] - non other den ... (i shall not say who .. coz he gonna THREATEN ME!! [ Oh .. I SO SCARE!!!] Tml is our NP sch OPEN House .. SO HINT TO ALL SEC STUDENT!!! - pls cum tml or friday or sat to support my SCHOOL ok?? haha .. nothing to tok also .. too BORED!!! hahaha .. OK i noe i am crazy .. but i just miss my blog too much!! So i started to write CRAPZ here .. =) Tml and Friday is so damn shiok .. [ ok i noe someone is GONNA JEALOUS abt me ..] tml i suppose to have lesson from 11am to 5pm .. BUT BUT!! due to OPEN HOUSE , i only have one lesson from 1pm to 3pm!!! If u already jealous abt it .. NO NO NO .. coz more to cum .. Friday suppose to have lesson from 9am to 4pm .. but i only have lesson on 2pm to 4pm ONLY!! WOOT!!!!! I SO LOVE NP OPEN HOUSE!!! LOL!!! OK .. i noe someone is gonna kill me liao .. so i shall end here .. [coz i din wan my blood to splash on to my lappy screen .. =)] date: Wednesday, February 01, 2006
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time: 3:42 PM
Hey ya!Its Chinese New Year!! OK I noe .. today is like err .. 4th day of CNY?? Sorry for not blogging much .. I started to realize that not many ppl were in the mood of CNY .. Because its like .. not much ppl were toking much abt it .. Its like last time when CNY is cuming , everybody will be so damn excited , toking abt how pretty u gonna dress urself , how u gonna spend ur day .. blab la bla b la .. And for me , I dont really like to enjoy it much too .. [ coz of the internal conflicts .. long story .. ] And I can sense that most ppl enjoy CNY is because its gonna have a long holiday .. just like this year .. Ppl arent excited abt CNY , they are just excited abt HOLIDAYS!! [ thats include me =)] There are just some things that I hate abt CNY .. Things that I hate abt CNY Case 1: Ur relatives says that u are SO THIN!! -_____- Well its normal for me liao , but sometimes I just cant stand that .. its CNY and u say these kinda of things to me .. from the start of a NEW YEAR and u say this kinda thing , u think I will put on weight ?? I not be wad-so-ever .. but its New Year can u pls say sth more nice or rather peaceful?? Wad worse is that some of my uncles’ [ father side] wife keep saying I am so thin , not one but many .. I only gt one thing to tell them .. PLS LOOK URSELF INTO THE MIRROR, YOU ARE SO FAT AND U SAY I AM SO THIN!! THATS BECOZ U ARE FAT AND U MAKE ME FEEL SO THIN WHEN STANDING NEAR U .. COZ U COMPARE UR SIZE TO ME!! EVEN A JUST-NICE FIGURE PERSON , U WILL ALSO THINK IS FAT .. COZ U ARE FAT!!!!!! AND PLS .. OUR FAMILY ARE ALL THE SAME SIZE , ITS NOT ONLY ME WHO IS THIN!! MIND YOU!! Hiaz .. when will this thing ever stop?? Its just only spoil my mood .. Case 2: Showing off .. Its only once in a year when we get together to meet up .. and of coz some of the relative will use this chance to show off .. esp in their kids studies .. [ which I hate the most ] They will ask question like .. where u study ah? Sec wad ah ? PLS!!! u think I re-tain ah .. every year ask me Sec wad .. like I will not grow up like that .. Den I will say I am now in Poly YR 1!!!!! Den they will like “ oh .. poly ah .. wad course ah ? “ I will say “ EE lah .. electrical engineering “ They will say “ wad course was that neva hear before leh .. is it becoz ur o’level results not good den go POLY?? “ I cant stand it anymore .. I feel like replying .. OI U STUPID OR WAD!! NOW POLY VERY DIFF. LE LEI .. U THINK PPL GO POLY IS ALL BAD RESULT DE AH?? MY CLASS ALL L1R5 LESSER DEN 20 LEI!! I THINK U ALSO DUNNO WAD IS L1R5 BA!!! [trying to hold my temper .. ] But I did not say wad I wan to say .. so I reply : “ No lar , now ppl can go JC also go Poly de “ [feel like slapping their face man] Some will start saying that his/her child study RJC, TJC .. wad-ever-shit it is .. SO? MY PROBLEM??? DO U NEED TO TELL EVERYONE IN THE WORLD?? DO U THINK I CARE?? So wad if its JC?? So wad if its Poly?? So wad if its ITE?? They are all schools by the way .. Case 3: pretend that u don exists So ppl I dunn wads the hell-out-wrong with them .. CNY is all abt giving ang bao [ unless u not married la ] Some ppl were so idiot [ sorry I use tt word, but I really have no choice but to use it on them] that they pretend that u are not there, or rather u are invisible .. and they din give u any ANG BAO!!! Its not I money face or wad lor .. its like I dun care how much u give me .. even its $2 , I also dun mind ,. It’s the thot that counts .. Some just pretend not to see u .. HIAZ .. SAD CASE MAN!! Where gt this kind of ppl de ???? Forget abt CNY stuffs .. Lets get sth personal .. I dunno wads happening to me .. But I dreamt of ‘him’ last nite .. WHY?? WHY ITS HIM AGAIN?? This is not the first time .. but I hope it’s the LAST TIME!! I am trying my very very best to forget abt him .. [ wadever ..] CNY is just so boring to me .. I was like going to rot at home .. YES ROT!! Ppl were going everywhere to visit frenes, teachers , lecturers, relatives .. But me ?? stuck at home wondering wad to do for the whole day .. Sitting on the sofa for almost the whole day , no interesting tv program to watch .. Call me a loser, anti social or wad-ever.. its up to u .. Suddenly think that life is just so boring .. or maybe I am the one who is boring .. NO WAY!! I will cry if someone told me that I am a boring person .. But I just need someone to sit beside me , tok to me .. or do wad-ever-shit we have .. But no , theres no one with me .. NOT A SINGLE SOUL .. Call me pity or ke lian , I dun care too .. I just wanna live my life the fullest .. But hey , maybe this CNY is meaningful after all .. coz I get to sit down and reflect abt myself .. Conclusions ? I am a gal who use to be so lively, but now I am just so restless, refuse to do anything interesting .. or meaningful .. or rather I am lonely and have nt much frenes .. becoz I am not popular enuff ?? becoz I am hard to get along?? [ no way!! I am the easiest person to get along!!] becoz I lost the touch of being active or I forgot how to joke or be happy … I seriously need someone to push me up .. if not I think I gonna die soon .. even if I vanish in the thin air one day .. will they realize that I am gone ? will they think that I am gone for good ?? or will they realize the importance of me .. will they ever think of that ?? but wadever it it , its too late to think of that if I really gone .. |