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date: Saturday, July 05, 2008
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time: 11:37 AM
OK, so finally i gt back my laptop only for a while...like at last!!! And i wanted to rant about something here, but the minute i start putting my fingers on the keyboard.. I am stuck... i dunno how to start and type.. my mind is blank BUT i still wanna rant something here! Argh! Damn frustrating.... I having mood swings lately... (but nt the PMS thing) i had been thinking and thinking alot lately... and i just dunno why.... whenever i wanna close my eyes and relax for a while ... my mind will be drifting to somewhere else and i will starting thinking and thinking and thinking..... ---- You see, i felt soooo alone sometimes.. i admit i had some close friends around me.... but u have to know, someday u have to let them go... (i hope you noe wad i mean) I had lots of friends from primary school, to secondary school and to now Poly and i even had friends that i met outside like thru frenes or something like that... BUT it all lasted like few years only... i dunn why, but i felt like i am a BAD FRIEND.... When in schools (pri to sec to poly) we use to talk n talk non stop and claim that we will be the best best friends forever n ever.... BUT when we graduate ?????????? WE DUN EVEN CONTACT EACH OTHER ANYMORE!! People go their own way when graduate... for PRI school friends, they went to diff sec school from me.... we promise each other to stay contact with each other... but after a few months time... we barely meet each other or sadly.. when on MSN we barely tok... with just a few HI and BYEs... Yes i admit, maybe they meet other BETTER friends in their secondary schools like wad i did... NEW FRIENDS always seems so INTERESTING... Den in SEC school, i meet totally of new friends... we hang out on recess ( do they still call that?), after school go shopping watch movie, talk to each other abt your crushes... But when we GRADUATE???? its still the same story..... WE DONT CONTACT EACH OTHER ANYMORE!!! except for a few 1% of it... but even with the 1% we contact, sometimes when we meet up, we look and sound like total strangers... we don have much topic to talk about, we dun have much things to talk about.... (i not refering to anybody we meet out here) WHY?? BECAUSE PEOPLE CHANGE!!!!!!!!! WE GROW UP, WE CHANGE .... THE CHARACTER WE HAD HAD CHANGE, WE CHANGE TO DIFFERENT TYPE OF PERSON WE ONCE WERE!!!! and same goes to the POLY... we were sooo close to each other.... we hang out and never leave anybody out..... but after we GRADUATE???? same thing happen... and now WE DUN EVEN CHAT ON MSN AND STAY CONTACT... I cant blame them.... some going overseas study.... guys go NS and some went to the working world.... BUT STILL I FELT LIKE I AM A BAD FRIEND.... I dun understand why some people still stay contact with their PRI, SEC, POLY/JC or even childhood friends.... i am just sooo eny of them....... BUT still, i am still glad that there are some close around me..but who knows what will happen years down the road??????? F R I E N D S , who are they actually????? WHAT are they for????????? SOMEONE who just come and go in your life????? WHY do they have to do this to me??? AM i a bad friend??? I feel soooo alone and empty inside... ok, i am getting emo down here.... i guess i should stop.... Labels: rantings |