date: Monday, February 20, 2006
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[to Nichalos , I am truly shock to see that photo in ur friendster .. can u pls put it away? Thanks ]
[ RANDOM THOUGHTS from the bottom of my hearts ]
I am so so screwed now .. Exams are coming and I am so fuckard .. and these day my mood really sucks .. My mood just went all the way down and it nearly reaches the end side of the earth ..And thats the problem that I din reply some of ur SMSes and even come online . And right now I just feel like being alone in my room and do the things that I enjoy doing .. My mood is so bad that even my mum is complaining .. coz I keep complaining her abt my peers, class, school bla bla bla ..and I even bought out some of the incident that happen long long time ago and tell her how I hate that incidents [ like wad a fool I am, thinking that ‘someone’ wanna be frene with me, but end up that ‘someone’ wanna be frene with me cos she wanna stay near the person she like which is my bestfrene . and I felt like a FOOL!!!] I just suddenly feel like splashing out those stuffs that I keep inside me for so long .. I JUST WANNA LET IT GO! One of my frenes say that I am just stress .. But I dunno .. I neva felt so deep shit frustrated in my whole entire 17 years, till now .. But I din really noe wad I stress at. Was it because of the EXAMS? Of maybe I not stress at all, maybe I just need a corner of my own to let out my unhappiness .. Maybe I really need someone to tok to .. But nope, its no use .. they will just tell u to stay calm and not think abt all these stuffs .. But all these are USELESS!! So I decide to turn to my blog, and let off my unhappiness ..
I noe some of my classmates do read my blog, and this is really bad if they see this post .. so I have to cross my fingers and hope they will not see my post .. I really cant stand my class sometimes, its not I hate them, I do like them .. there are some frenes who care abt me .. There is only just one small part that is sickening .. if this is solve .. my class would be perfect!! PERFECT CLASS!! I dunno wad the others feel abt this, but I do noe someone out there have the same opinion as me .. Here goes my unhappiness to the one small part of the class ..
To the smokers gang [ WY’s gang] : PLS, STOP ALL THE VAGUALITIES THAT IS COMING OUT OF UR DAMN SHIT MOUTH .. AND STOP PLAYING GAMES IN CLASS, IT IS WORSE WHEN U GUYS ARE PLAYING SO LOUDLY WITH ALL THE SHIT THINGS CUMING OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH!!!! Its really irritating, yes I noe I admit, I do sometimes play games in class and so do some of my classmates .. but do they make so much noise? DO THEY? NO! ONLY U!! U GUYS SCOLD VAGUALITIES AS IF ITS END OF THE WORLD!! AS IF THERE IS ONLY ONE LANGUAGE IN THIS WORLD WHICH IS VAGUALITIES .. wad for cum sch to study? U all can form one gang which teach ppl using vagualities or maybe a school, wouldnt it be so ‘COOL’? I noe I do scold some of the words, but I dun use it as thou it is my language .. mind you! And WY , pls stop all ur nonsense and stop toking shit .. only shit ppl tok shit stuffs .. And in these world there is no such things call FREE!! U dun think that JY and BK will do the assignment for u GUYS!!! U guys were playing games so much that when it comes to pass up assignment, u guys will cum ard and ask us to help u with do the assignment .. NEVER! FAT HOPE!! And dun ask us to teach u the modules that is out for the exams …its ur fault not listening to lecturers coz u all are so bloodly busy PLAYING GAMES!! If there is no BK or JY in ur class, u smokers would have been D-E-A-D!! DEAD!! And pls, smoking is nothing cool, dun act like u are the only one who smokes in the whole entire WORLD!!!!! Or rather UNIVERSE!! [ no offence to the smokers out there, I am referring to my some of my class smokers] And stop all ur CHILDISH stuffs .. like [ who like who lar, bla bla bla .. using someone phone to sms someone telling that person ‘I love u’, this is so CHILDISH, I only thot secondary sch days will do that ..] Hiaz .. sometimes I really feel that life is so unfair .. u study so hard for u exams, but end up someone who dun listen during lesson, lazy .. score better den u .. this is damn freaking irritating .. ITS SO UNFAIR!!!! I just wish that our class will be so PERFECT if we dun have the WY’s gang ard .. OK enough of that, I shall not complain much .. coz if I am unlucky I may be with them for yr 2 if they change our classes .. So SHHHhhhhh …. Zip! Shut! =)
I just wanna say that I am not here writing ppl’s bad stuff .. I just wanna let my unhappiness out here .. dun try to think that I am mean .. I am just a normal student who wanna let her anger out ..
Its been almost a year in Ngee Ann .. And I found out that I do grow a lot during this period , I felt stronger, independent and mature and I noe how to handle things now .. I am really very happy in where I am now, all I ask for now is improvement .. And I am looking forward for yr 2 and I do hope that I will be in the same class as now ..[ thou as I say I hate some of them]
I shall not say anything that upset me, coz I think its a waste of time .. cos some ppl might say ‘ YAYA .. as if u are the only one who is so upset and frustrated ..’ so I will end my post here ..
TO ALL MY FRIENDS, I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH, I WILL NOT DO ANY BAD THINGS TO SPOIL OUR FRIENDSHIP .. I LOVE U GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUCKS!!!
P.S : any part time job to offer?? Pls inform me .. thanks
[XuPing wanna say sorry if she ever offend anyone in her blog, pls forgive her and she will try to be a better person .. ]
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