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date: Wednesday, February 01, 2006
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time: 3:42 PM
Hey ya!Its Chinese New Year!! OK I noe .. today is like err .. 4th day of CNY?? Sorry for not blogging much .. I started to realize that not many ppl were in the mood of CNY .. Because its like .. not much ppl were toking much abt it .. Its like last time when CNY is cuming , everybody will be so damn excited , toking abt how pretty u gonna dress urself , how u gonna spend ur day .. blab la bla b la .. And for me , I dont really like to enjoy it much too .. [ coz of the internal conflicts .. long story .. ] And I can sense that most ppl enjoy CNY is because its gonna have a long holiday .. just like this year .. Ppl arent excited abt CNY , they are just excited abt HOLIDAYS!! [ thats include me =)] There are just some things that I hate abt CNY .. Things that I hate abt CNY Case 1: Ur relatives says that u are SO THIN!! -_____- Well its normal for me liao , but sometimes I just cant stand that .. its CNY and u say these kinda of things to me .. from the start of a NEW YEAR and u say this kinda thing , u think I will put on weight ?? I not be wad-so-ever .. but its New Year can u pls say sth more nice or rather peaceful?? Wad worse is that some of my uncles’ [ father side] wife keep saying I am so thin , not one but many .. I only gt one thing to tell them .. PLS LOOK URSELF INTO THE MIRROR, YOU ARE SO FAT AND U SAY I AM SO THIN!! THATS BECOZ U ARE FAT AND U MAKE ME FEEL SO THIN WHEN STANDING NEAR U .. COZ U COMPARE UR SIZE TO ME!! EVEN A JUST-NICE FIGURE PERSON , U WILL ALSO THINK IS FAT .. COZ U ARE FAT!!!!!! AND PLS .. OUR FAMILY ARE ALL THE SAME SIZE , ITS NOT ONLY ME WHO IS THIN!! MIND YOU!! Hiaz .. when will this thing ever stop?? Its just only spoil my mood .. Case 2: Showing off .. Its only once in a year when we get together to meet up .. and of coz some of the relative will use this chance to show off .. esp in their kids studies .. [ which I hate the most ] They will ask question like .. where u study ah? Sec wad ah ? PLS!!! u think I re-tain ah .. every year ask me Sec wad .. like I will not grow up like that .. Den I will say I am now in Poly YR 1!!!!! Den they will like “ oh .. poly ah .. wad course ah ? “ I will say “ EE lah .. electrical engineering “ They will say “ wad course was that neva hear before leh .. is it becoz ur o’level results not good den go POLY?? “ I cant stand it anymore .. I feel like replying .. OI U STUPID OR WAD!! NOW POLY VERY DIFF. LE LEI .. U THINK PPL GO POLY IS ALL BAD RESULT DE AH?? MY CLASS ALL L1R5 LESSER DEN 20 LEI!! I THINK U ALSO DUNNO WAD IS L1R5 BA!!! [trying to hold my temper .. ] But I did not say wad I wan to say .. so I reply : “ No lar , now ppl can go JC also go Poly de “ [feel like slapping their face man] Some will start saying that his/her child study RJC, TJC .. wad-ever-shit it is .. SO? MY PROBLEM??? DO U NEED TO TELL EVERYONE IN THE WORLD?? DO U THINK I CARE?? So wad if its JC?? So wad if its Poly?? So wad if its ITE?? They are all schools by the way .. Case 3: pretend that u don exists So ppl I dunn wads the hell-out-wrong with them .. CNY is all abt giving ang bao [ unless u not married la ] Some ppl were so idiot [ sorry I use tt word, but I really have no choice but to use it on them] that they pretend that u are not there, or rather u are invisible .. and they din give u any ANG BAO!!! Its not I money face or wad lor .. its like I dun care how much u give me .. even its $2 , I also dun mind ,. It’s the thot that counts .. Some just pretend not to see u .. HIAZ .. SAD CASE MAN!! Where gt this kind of ppl de ???? Forget abt CNY stuffs .. Lets get sth personal .. I dunno wads happening to me .. But I dreamt of ‘him’ last nite .. WHY?? WHY ITS HIM AGAIN?? This is not the first time .. but I hope it’s the LAST TIME!! I am trying my very very best to forget abt him .. [ wadever ..] CNY is just so boring to me .. I was like going to rot at home .. YES ROT!! Ppl were going everywhere to visit frenes, teachers , lecturers, relatives .. But me ?? stuck at home wondering wad to do for the whole day .. Sitting on the sofa for almost the whole day , no interesting tv program to watch .. Call me a loser, anti social or wad-ever.. its up to u .. Suddenly think that life is just so boring .. or maybe I am the one who is boring .. NO WAY!! I will cry if someone told me that I am a boring person .. But I just need someone to sit beside me , tok to me .. or do wad-ever-shit we have .. But no , theres no one with me .. NOT A SINGLE SOUL .. Call me pity or ke lian , I dun care too .. I just wanna live my life the fullest .. But hey , maybe this CNY is meaningful after all .. coz I get to sit down and reflect abt myself .. Conclusions ? I am a gal who use to be so lively, but now I am just so restless, refuse to do anything interesting .. or meaningful .. or rather I am lonely and have nt much frenes .. becoz I am not popular enuff ?? becoz I am hard to get along?? [ no way!! I am the easiest person to get along!!] becoz I lost the touch of being active or I forgot how to joke or be happy … I seriously need someone to push me up .. if not I think I gonna die soon .. even if I vanish in the thin air one day .. will they realize that I am gone ? will they think that I am gone for good ?? or will they realize the importance of me .. will they ever think of that ?? but wadever it it , its too late to think of that if I really gone .. |